I would be one minute avoiding a situation in case I felt bad and the next I was not going to let anxiety to win and say I was going.I learnt that when I felt this way, it was far better to just go without thinking about it, just move right into the middle of whatever was having me question it.
I would say educating myself was by far the most important thing that helped me, understanding why I felt the way I did, helped take all the fear and worry out of it and opened up the door for me to begin my recovery.
I no longer spent each day worrying and trying to fix how I felt, this in turn helped my mind and body have the breaks it needed to heal.
But there were a few things along the way that helped me and without going into loads of detail on each one here are just a few.
Exercise and keeping busy – I have mentioned it before but I took up exercise and it really helped.
It burnt of all the excess adrenalin for a while and when I came back from a workout I felt great.
The adrenalin would eventually build back up as my body created it faster than a normal body, due to years of over worrying.
But it made me realise that all that was wrong with me was not mental in anyway, the exhausted body and feelings of detachment was just adrenalin on tired nerves and a tired mind.
Getting out of bed when I woke – I used to feel a little spaced out when I woke and would start to go monitor how I felt, sort of go through the day in my head, feel that ‘Oh here we go again’ start to the day.
I found just waking and getting out of bed and being active in other simple things made a difference.
Just going down and making breakfast, living my life how I should do and not sitting around moping and feeling sorry for myself.
Moving towards my feelings of anticipation – An anxious mind will have us believing all sorts of things that never actually happen.